Nothing seems to be going right.  A friend that was basically close to me at one point, apparently hates me.  Why?  He has no reason, at least not one that he will tell me, and I hate it.  I think I wouldn't care so much if he would give me a reason.  At first I was okay because he didn't like my other friends either, but they have all started hanging out again and now I feel left out.  It sucks because we all could hang out in a group when he was fine with me, but now we can't and I miss the way we all used to be.

Everything else is so screwed up now too, I don't even feel like talking about it.  I've given up all hope.  Life sucks.  Plain&Simple.

P.S.  today is my 2monthiversary with Byard... I love him, wish I could be spending it with him.

Only one word can be used to describe yesterday and that's amazing.  Saturdays have become my favorite day of the week, I get to spend the whole day, that is 9 in the morning till 10 or 11 at nite with byard.  I love his presence.  I'm content with just having him sitting next to me.

I go from dating a boy who hated holding hands with me to one who constantly grabs mine and leads me through a crowd.  I feel safe, secure, and protected in his presence.  All my fears go away when he's with me.  I never thought that i could care so much for someone that I've only been with for two months.  I feel like I've known him forever.  I'd do anything for him and I love him sooo much.  Now I'm done being gushy.  <33

Everything is soo perfect, yet i still feel like something is missing.

= (

Yet, I don't know what it is.